Journal !!

I forgot my password for the longest time ever...

Or i thought i did but in reality i didnt. Very confusing stuff.

Anywayssss. Pattie has kind of became a big deal while i was gone. Crazy, i know, right? Since then i've decided to turn this website into a place where i gather and document the progress of Patties character and whatever new versions i make or have made of her.

This means blog entries related to Pattie, showcasing concept art for stuff and just gathering cool stuff people have made about her. Though i'll still keep sort of a diary here because i've been instructed that it'd help my mental health. Just more character Pattie stuff is gonna be mentioned thsn originally planned!! (I'll always specify though when i'm talking about the character because it gets confusing fast.)

I'm honestly not in the mood to code from scrap a whole character gallery because i'm busy so if anyone knows any good pre-existing templates TELL ME!! I need to know lol. I wanna showcase fanart sooo bad and some art and doodles i've made myself.

Till then, you can find Pattie on Toyhou.se (click the text to go to her page)

On another note, thank you so much to everyone whos been sending nice stuff in my quest book, i appericate it and i love you guys!! Plenty of stuff has been happening. I'm happy to say that i got through the exams but unfortunately i'm still not going to school. I've got plenty of friends on yumetwt so it's gotten easier to just ignore all the negative stuff and focus on what were actually here for aka sharing our yumeships (Yay!!)

I also broke up with my boyfriend. Well he broke up with me- Found out that he had been cheating on me for a while and that was why he was being distant and an asshole. I'm talking with someone else tough now and i think i kind of like them?? He's fun and shares his cool projects with me :D He does 3D design and hes absolutely awesome at it like wtff!? Needless to say even if im still a bit down about the break up i'm trying not to think about it. Just feels like i wasted three years on the wrong guy and i'm happy that i can do stuff that i love now without being made fun of for it by him or stopped from doing it.

Thats about it for now. I might add some stuff here if i feel like it later. I feel like this blog is gonna help me a lot.

It wouldn't let me log in for a while but now i'm back guys lol

Aperantly the Eltingville club fandom has revived?? Lets go!? Tho i have some complaints because i've seen a lot of nsfw being made and adults shipping themselves with the 16 year old characters... Don't get me wrong i love selfshipping, even i have a selfship with Bill but like, if youre almost in your thirties maybe ship yourself with the epilogue versions because some of the shit people are saying about the characters is weird as fuck...

Also plenty of disgusting stuff have been posted onto pinterest like that one artists who drew Jerry, Pete and Bill with hudge boobs and people were praising them and saying hpw hot it was??? Like it wasnt a genderbend or anything, it was literal fetish art. If you've seen the photos you know why i'm saying that...

Out of character rambling ahead!!

It's been such a crazy start of the year... My cat went to the vet a few days ago and i've had some problems with exams ~_~

I've kinda been skipping school because of my health and spent every day at the library because i'm too embarrassed to say anything about it. I'm super tired of all the complaining that i'm lazy and can't do anything so i rather just pretend. I don't think i'll pass the 10th grade. I might never even get to law school. I'll have to say goodbye to all my dreams of being an ADA. I should prepare to face the reality and just try to get a job.

Not like anyone will ever hire someone like me with so many health problems. We also dont have money for my therapy and the school councelor isn't at schoo, 90% of the time. Not that i've ever really opened up to her in the first place. I should probably also get off of twitter. Just when i was getting better my mental health is starting to go down again. I've been getting more death threats than usual and Tiktok isn't any better. I mean, why do people care if you're a yumeshipper. I'm still human. It's not like i did anything.

My boyfriend hasn't been talking to me either. He said he's sick but hes been talking to some of the other friends in the friend group. Ifeel awful because he had gotten mad when i added one of my friends in my discord server so he could find friends. He's still mad that i let him in and thinks the friend i added wants to date me or something?? I get being jealous but it just sucks that he won't talk to me. And when he is talking to people or sending stuff on the server he ignores me. Makes me feel shitty because i want everyone to get along and be friends. I want everyone to have fun and not be left out.

My bad, that was all kinda personal but i don't really have anywhere else to vent. This feels safer to me, like no one can judge me in my safe space.

Finally finished this page agghhh... I'm sick which is surprising because its so rare for me to catch anything. I gotta study to so many exams its so exhaustinggggg, but oh well.